Kendrick

Yesterday I attended a beautiful funeral for 5 year old Kendrick Little. He is dancing with the angels and in the arms of Jesus now after a year long battle with cancer. Oh, how precious his family is and I ask in the Mighty name of Jesus that you pray for them with all your heart. I can't and won't even try to imagine their pain, their hurt, and their suffering. However yesterday, I was given a glimpse of their family and God's grace is shining through them. It was standing room only kind of funeral because he and they touched so very many people all their lives. How glorious it was as they praised God throughout and gave Him all the glory! I was blessed beyond measure to view the wonderful photographs of their family and to stand near them as they entered the sanctuary. Their boys so wonderfully poised and their smiles so childlike. I have no doubt they know where their brother is and with a child's faith they believe. They believe that Kendrick received his victory and is there awaiting their arrival one day. I was convicted that I don't take enough family pictures together with all of us. I would love to be able to tell our story through pictures of our joys and our trials. I tend to only photograph our joys, not our sorrows. It's a thought though. Could you? Thank you to the Littles for allowing us to be part of your lives!

All the way my Savior Leads Me

An 'aha' moment ushered it's way into my Yukon today! I've been praying ever so fervently the last several days asking God to guide me through the dark. My darkness isn't anything more than unanswered prayer and unrealized expectations. I'm needing Him to truly guide me and show me the path that He has me on. It is difficult, steep, and continues to get harder. That is not a reason for me to stop or to venture off the path, it is all the more reason to take it as a stepping stone each step of the way to see All the ways my Savior leads me! So as I was driving home from dropping my dear son off at bible study (my heart swells here and so glad he is focused and wants to do this), I punch in a random CD number and up pops Chris Tomlin's "All the Way my Savior Leads Me." That is when He spoke. He spoke through this simple song, that no matter how dark the road ahead, He is there. And it was that simple. He is there and He isn't going anywhere and my heart swelled with Joy. Defining joy is precarious some days, but today it is simply having confidence in God. That deep confidence that goes to the bottom of your soul. No matter the circumstances, whether we are happy or not, we can have joy! Oh, you will see me smile because of that joy and I can honestly tell you when asked, "Are you okay?" that "Yes, I am or I will be!" Because He will guide me, keep me, answer me, but as David proclaims in many of his Psalms after an agonizing prayer with no apparent answer, I will trust and sing to my Lord! Am I happy about my circumstances, not really. Am I joyful that He is taking me on a journey that will strengthen my faith, produce character, and show me endurance, depends on the day you ask me, but today it is well with my soul. Enjoy the song below:


All the way my Savior leads me, What have I to ask beside?
Can I doubt His tender mercy, Who through life has been my Guide?
Heav’nly peace, divinest comfort, Here by faith in Him to dwell!
For I know, whate’er befall me, Jesus doeth all things well;
For I know, whate’er befall me,Jesus doeth all things well.

All the way my Savior leads me,Cheers each winding path I tread,
Gives me grace for every trial, Feeds me with the living Bread.
Though my weary steps may falter And my soul athirst may be,
Gushing from the Rock before me,Lo! A spring of joy I see;
Gushing from the Rock before me,Lo! A spring of joy I see.

All the way my Savior leads me, Oh, the fullness of His love!
Perfect rest to me is promised In my Father’s house above.
When my spirit, clothed immortal, Wings its flight to realms of day
This my song through endless ages:Jesus led me all the way;
This my song through endless ages:Jesus led me all the way.

You ever have just one of those days?

Oh my goodness, am I having one of those weeks! Between Sarah's studies, Isabella's lack of studying, Zech's struggling with other things, robotics, Gracie, dishes, house, dinner, groceries, 3 meetings in one day, school in general, and I'm sure I could name a list a mile long, my patience, time, and any mercy I had is wearing thin (for those of you who know me too well know mercy wasn't very much to begin with). To top all of this off, I cannot hear! I mean literally my ears are reacting to the low pressure that has been over us and all day long this loud roaring and ringing permeates every bit of my ears and head and blocks out the sound I so long to hear.

Even so, I'm remembering a bible study that I'm going through is teaching me to walk in the dark. The lady who wrote the bible study is blind and has quite a bit of experience about walking in the dark. She is teaching me that God really wanted us to be well with our soul (with Him and our spirit with Him) even when our circumstances aren't well. I've been amazed at how many scriptures are written about walking in the dark with God!

"... Who walks in the darkness and has no light? (there are so many days I feel like this, Kari insert) Let him trust in the name of the Lord and rely upon his God." Isaiah 50:10

". . . even the darkness will not be dark to you;the night will shine like the day,for darkness is as light to you. " Ps 139:12

There are more scriptures, but amazing to me is that even when it feels as though the darkness is closing in, when there is no escape, He is there. He is always there. In that fact, I am well with my soul even though my circumstances aren't, because He is guiding me, and He is the Light! That doesn't mean I'm not struggling still. We all find ourselves in situations where we feel isolated from others because we think nobody is going through the same thing or we isolate ourselves. However the truth is that He is with us, has never left us, and is guiding us and so we are not alone.

He is strengthening me day by day no matter what I see. My faith is strengthened by what I hope for, not for what I see because it is the evidence of things not seen! I might see darkness today surrounding me, but I am reassured that He is guiding me and He is not going to leave me! May you walk in the darkness and let Him be your light.

Is the school year over yet?

Yes, I'm already ready for summer again! We are 6 weeks into school right now and it's flying faster than I can keep up. Managing a freshman in high school, one in Junior High, and elementary as well as keeping up with the little toddler running around is keeping me maneuvering more miles than I do on my jogging days! Our schedules are packed so tight with robotics squeezing into the schedule, two other high school classes starting this coming week, and enrichment that I've actually told Sarah just to hang on tight because some Saturday school days are coming soon. Next week alone she has 2 lessons in biology with 37 new vocabulary words to add to her already 50 terms and 2 lectures, 2 labs, and her first quiz! We have robotic meetings scheduled for most of next week on top of all the other conflicting affairs on the agenda!

Can you tell I'm just a little stressed? Well stressed spelled backwards is DESSERTS!!! So I'm going to take a big breath, talk to God, remind myself of the verse on the top of my blogspot page, and splurge a little with some desserts. God will see me through and once robotics is done then our schedule will return to a little less than hectic and we will begin the Holiday season for just more items to find room on my schedule! God has called me to do this and He will see me through it! Do I have the ability? No! Does He? Certainly! He knows it all and knows how this school year is going to end. Are we there yet? Just joking, come along for the fast and exciting ride we are on this year!