Myths, something new that hurts, & day 13

Okay, I must face facts as they show before me. I think subconsciously and somewhat consciously that at least half way through I would look similar to the person on the front cover of my DVD! Ha! I nowhere near her look. Now I know I have Myth in my title because I truly would love to look like (body wise) a more lean, mean, example of who I am. I also know that I'm 40 and out of those 40 years I have maybe exercised 5 consistently. So why would I expect to look like a supermom of 3 kids in just 13 days, when 35 years of non exercising and non healthy eating? I'm not sure but I know in the recesses of my brain I had envisioned such a thing happening, so therefore it is a myth to me. The DVD in no way assures me that I will be such a person in 13 days or even 30 days. What it does assure me is that I'm shredding and what the mirror assures me is the need to shred oh so very much! UUUGGGHHH! Also the health meter tells me that this must be a consistent variable in my life and not a missing variable that I'm trying to find in algebra (but it feels just as complicated I can testify to that, Have I told you lately how much I hate algebra?).

Also since starting level 2 my knees are really giving me fits. Saturday, yesterday (even though I skipped because it was Sunday (rest day)), and today my left knee is mildly painful and hurts when I walk, sit, or lie down. Now I'm not going to be a "Oh my knee hurts so I can't exercise", kind of lady, I'm going to be a "tough it out and get over it, it will get better", kind of Woman! I'm going to do this and I'm going to get tough! Lean! and well probably not a muscle machine! But a lesser of a woman than what I am fat wise that is!

Day 13 comes with no real new things, just the decision to do this no matter what. It is starting to take discipline each day to choose to do this. Not showing any real progress since the last time I lost weight and say a smidgen of definition in my abs. However I've had three babies, 3 c-sections, and one major hysterectomy and I'm fairly sure those abs will never be the same again. I am trying, and I upped my abs today to adding 2 more minutes onto my regular exercise of them. I'm going to continue trying to up the ab exercises little by little and hoping to attain a better view of my midsection. Although only I and my guy will be the only ones to see them, it would be nice when I reach for the diet coke in Walmart and my shirt goes up that someone who might look that way doesn't wince and say, wow, she needs a longer shirt!

So progress is in discipline today, not in seeing results. There are some but they are micrometers from where I want be. All that being said, I got here after 40 years, who am I to think that only after 13 days I can reverse it???